A Bed time story...."One camel one hair"

The politicians are very good in all kind of tactics, they learned all kinds of tactics from young until they died, and some of them use black magic too, surely they will pay for these evils in generations to come, when the ghosts and spirits haunted their hearts and minds, and they run and hide from God, and they too sometimes lived in fears and struggles, but they like to drink, and getting drunk, and they sleep into "coma" for awhile to forget their sinful nature, but then when they wake up, they forget to see their faces in the mirror, so they went back to do the same evil again, this went on and on, until one day they laid on the sick bed...there they died and return to God, and then they regretted for what they had done on earth with the power and authority given, they will be punished for all the sins they had done, sure...too late for them to correct themselves...they died before they know who is God..

Let me tell you a bed time story about some best politicians in a country called "Camel United," they are good, very good, and I say good mean very good, i seldom say good to a man, until he is very good!

They are very good in giving, every politician called this as a charitable society, they give out a string of camel hair, the camel fur is cheap or not cheap? Ask the camel farm owner they will tell you. What, a camel hair to the poor! yes, he is good in this. For every poor man the politician met, he said, "come, come, come over, one people, one nation, one people, one camel... come, let me teach you what is my "one people one camel.... hair, one people one camel hair...come, come, come and support me..." So every poor will get his or her portion, just a bit of camel hair....

But where are the camels, those gigantic camels, those big camels, those fat camels, how come only their hairs were given out to the poor, why the poor get only their hairs, and not the whole camels, where is the camel, where they gone?

Where is the camel meat, where is the bone, where is the camel milk for the babies, where is the camel's skin for the armies and policemen....how come only a camel hair for each of the poor? And the politicians said this is it, the charitable.. charity...the lovable caring...society..some of the politicians called themselves as the Dr. Camel, since they are the specialist in eating camel..Phd...

Let me tell you where the camel gone, firstly, the politicians cut the camel hairs, and then they give away the camel hairs to the poor...after that they keep all the camels for themselves, they ate some camels in their daily feast, some camels they kept as a toy or pet, and some camels they kept for a ride when they are free, some are only for displays, to woo the people to vote them....most camels are hidden, some are sold secretly.... when the camels are going to be killed, they will be killed secretly... and then they will be eaten secretly, in darkness they will eat the camels, in haste they will shallow the meats and bones, and after that the politicians will wipe their mouths with a long white cloth, with clean mouths, no proof...so they said they did not see any camel...it is a norm among the politicians in some camel countries, where the politicians put up sign board along the way to fool the people, "No camel beyond this point," and they told the people, "we have only 4 camels left, and this one is going to died, so, be patient, and here you are, a camel hair for each of you, take or do not take at all, because there are still many people waiting to get our camel hair...hurry, hurry, hurry..here you are a camel hair, do not forget to say thank you, you must say thank you, you must thank me, in giving the camel for you, understand..." The foolish people returned with a funny smile, "Thank you my lords..."

You see, the politicians are usually very fat, why very fat? Because they ate a lot of camels everyday, when you asked them what had they eaten, what they had eaten for making them fat? they will not tell you the truth, they will tell a lie to the people, "I am fat, you see, I am fat, why I am fat, because I eat too much coconut, I consumed too much coconut oil every day, pity me, because I have heart problems...I am also poor like you, "one country one man only," sorry...I hope you understand..."

That is why I tell you, the politicians are very good in this kind of tactics, until no man know where are the camel gone, there are rumours being told among the foolish people....some said all those camels just vanished into the air...some said the camels had been knock down by a big Phoenix,...some even said the camels were stolen, some people said the camels were eaten by a lions called "Soros," and some people said the camels killed each other, and some racists told a serious lies to the poor, they said, all the camels had been stolen by the yellow coloured face, so the poor will blame the yellow coloured face one day for their missing camels...another man said nicely to confused the people, that the camels are being kept underground, so do not worry for the camel, they will be resurface one day, the people believed in his words lastly, until today, every poor man will receive only one camel hair... no one dare to ask anything about the camel any more...they are happy with the camel hair...so they live happily for another thousand years, and then the camel country become greater and greater, and people called it as the "White Elephant bounty." This is a fairy tale, please do not be serious...the end...happy?

Do not tell me the VPP story again, and again, i heard that story, I were told for the last 365 days x 6...but i like to tell you this kind of funny story...where the good lawyers also put an ear and hear what i say, and they believe my story...and the fine doctors will sing my new song, "A bed time story a day, gone the sickness away...." Why are you not smiling? Smile, did you get a camel hair, none?

And so the laws and regulations were made to protect the politicians, and lawyers were hired, the politicians are united, and the people are oppressed, and security was tighten, so that no one dare to ask anything about those camels, if any one is questioning the camels, he is asking for troubles, he will be warned, jailed, turned over, and not the least, they will be silent in some way or the other...be a good boys and girls and just keep quite, let the people forget about the camels, and the people can sleep sound and work happily...pretend to know nothing, hear nothing, see nothing, this is what justice all about, this what equal is all about, this is call freedom is all about, and this law is all about, this is called education is all about, if you cannot live under this circumstances, go away, go out, do not come back again, if you are not happy, just leave the country...

My sons, what should we do if you are living this in "camel united," you pray for the politicians to repent, we should pray for the camels too, so that the camels will become mad and crazy, they will become some mad camels, and let the camels chase after the politicians...how about that, a good idea, pray about this...and I hope the mad camels will recovered from madness some days...you better don't catch the mad camel's tails now...free them any way...hang lose brother, so that they will chase the politicians and bite them, let lose the mad camels into the wild...let heaven come down to the earth...

To the church in Ephesus

In the Old Testament, Elijah fought with hundreds of false prophets, and then they were killed, because they misled the people to walk in a wrong path, worshipping the idol rather than Adonai, our Lord.

But in the end time there are false apostle, they called themselves apostle, but they are not.....these are living false apostles, preaching here and there, performing, and serving the communities, getting great pay, and great popularity had given to these apostles, you know some of them...they are in the world even until today...not far from you. What are you doing here on earth? Are you not aware of these false apostles?

You are called to test them...test their spirit, some even have many spirits, evil and unclean spirit, you must smell them out by prayer and living together with them, you have to dig them out one day, press them out any time, give no chance at all, you are called to test, not to trust them, ordained or not ordained, testing upon testing, until they gave up their false doctrines and false teaching, until you win them over, and until you saved some of them, test the golden gold, see weather it is true gold or true bronze, how to test them, next, test their doctrine, test their mindset, test everything in and out, before you trust them a bit, you never trust any man easily, how about the politicians, can you trust them? test them, sure you must test the politicians, so prepare a way to test the people in the governments, how to test the politicians, simple, the cat likes to eat fishes, politicians have a kind of unusual lusts, because it is smelly, a baby like to drink milk, they smell like a baby, many politician failed in money, womanising, they indulged in murders, power and corruption for money and women, like wise in the church, Apostle John and Paul wrote about these powerful people in handling the churches, they are:

2 Corinthians 11:13
For such men are false apostles, deceitful workmen, masquerading as apostles of Christ.

John wrote in Revelation 2:2
I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked men, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not, and have found them false.

In the end time, 2 witnesses, 2 true apostles are to be found, will be sent to Israel to witness for the Lord...and preach the good news, the coming of the Messiah...As we know, there are people being sent to Israel to talk to them, this is good, walking together, press toward the peace making process, but there must be a force that force them to sign that peace agreement for a 7 years agreement, we must pray the heaven to show a sign to scare both these countries, so they will obey the sign, and then they sign the agreement. Am I requested foolishly?

Heavenly Father, please sent us apostles to the Israelites, and even to the Arabs, and then they will be reconcile and then they make friend,s Lord, show your sign in the sky, so they will be scared and to obey the sign and then they sign the agreement, if this is Your will, may it be done, may Your servants be sent to these places in time, and Lord, make haste to help the peace keepers in the middle east so that they will be protected until to the end...In Jesus' Name..Amen

Come, the prophets, from Turkey...?

A prayer for the world.

The Chinese political parties must be shaken and broken and freed, as they wanted to shake my life and my work, they must be turned over one by one, not violently, but slowly internally, the splits in the political party must began as soon as possible, and the leaders must be replaced one by one, they can smile some more with power and money....they will be awaken from sleep with crying and...wiping...!

Chinese leaders with corrupted minds had sold out our Chinese heritage, our younger generation had suffered for the futures, our Chinese leaders must be tamed...they had taken brides and brides, and they are not satisfy, even they wanted to kill and hurt one and another, this thing cannot go on for another day, prepare them to meet the end of the world, where there is earthquakes, hungers and troubles...let the Democrat party and the Communist party repent from the evils, and stay away from terrorism...and their suffering had just began...let the Chinese stay away from evil and may God saved us from temptations and evils. lead us into the right path.

God, please hear my prayer, this is my plea for my race and my country man, come and hear my cry, because, no Chinese came to help, You are our only help, please help us, let all the Chinese suffer together with me, let them suffer so that we will be united, so that the rich will not oppress the weak and the poor, and some of them are very angry in reading critique about them, melt their pride...may God rebuke them, let me keep silent in front of them, and let me see Your works and grace on this land, I am losing my mind and sleep in writing this blog to refute the theologians even their ideology, and I am fading away bodily, I do not know what is next to write, and may God, rebuke the terrorists who had created those foolish wars in this earth, may God rebuke the rich doctors who disturbs us days and nights, surely God will repay them accordingly, may God prolong my days on earth, if God is willing, may God sustain me for another day, weeks, this is my plea, may Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven, Lord, thank you, for preparing the earth for the end of this earth, and thank you so that in these sufferings and uncertainties, we must trust in God. God, please take away the wall between the charismatic and fundamentalist, and let them come and join in ICCC, and let them be strong in the Lord...cast out the demons and devils which are proclaiming racism and terrorism in the earth, bound them for a thousand years, may God bless us...may God bless USA, China, India, Russia, Israel, Palestine, Jordan, Iran, Pakistan, Mexico, because they are suffering in the swine flu, may God continue to show us one step at a time, and where and how we all must heading our future, war or peace, life or death, now and then we must decide, and we must not turn backward, but let the history take their course, and let the people follow You, and may God sent Your angels to come here, and glory to You, and peace onto this earth, and let the faithful continue to walk the way with hand in hands, let them stay away from idols and the love of money, may God forgive me, this unworthy servant, who are wondering in this blog space in searching and writing about the VPP, may God protect the saints and their families, not forgetting the evil lawyers who turn our society into chaos and surely the time is come for them to be judged, may God raised up good lawyer among the people, sent this blog with a greeting in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ, amen.

The purge of the Godly love

Where is that love in mankind? I cannot see that this moment, I see more and more man kill and hate each other than man and man loved one another. And human are united to destroy a man whom they hated, and there is time, when life is wasted in defending and attacking for the sake of money, frame, statute...they are play a game on human, this is a sin, but they did not see this is a sin...and the weak are oppressed, this is sin...but they said they are charitable, they are loving and kind to the poor and sick, and they said they are devoted to God, and they went to house of idols and gods, where they bow down, there they washed their hands, they knee, and worship, the image of gods, and they chant and chant, until they felt release from the guilt of sins, and then they returned from the house of gods.

Another day, they forget the chanting in the house of god, and they planed a plan to hit and run, and some other time, they plan to kill a man secretly, sometimes to lay a trap to stumble a young man, and so that he fell into the trap, and he arise no more. He the murderer is saying he himself a man of god, he says he is the leader of the society, he is protecting the society, in killing and murdering, he said he is for peace, he said to the young man he oppressed, "You must give thanks, give thanks...I also believe in god!" Surely the labour under the sun light is in vain.

Human kills, if you paid him enough, with a sum of money, he can takes a soul and give it to you, if you wanted him to kill, and human beings are like thing, a living thing, but without value to them, they collected much money to spend and spend, in lust, and flaming his own glory, and he is delighted in killing, and money rolling in, and he is becoming rich, and there is no end for any repentance, and I see great man fallen, like lightning falling from sky, and I see the wicked men, happier than the righteous and the devoted, and the dog and cat of the rich are living better than the poor bagger. He ate the scum from the food of the animals.

Human is happy when he sees others are suffering, human behaving like animal, and they treated their enemy like a small kitten, and they crashed and killed with their bare hands. And they are happy in seeing blood being shed, and when human is being tortured, he is laughing happily...and I see this in a man like you and me.....hate does kills.

This world under my foot was under taken by a lunatic, and he called himself the great, the powerful, and he wanted these young mind to trust in him rather than God, forbid that, and the world is under a charm, the charms of money blinded the eyes, and the hates like a fire burn this land, it turned our sin cursed land into hell, the murder came into this world with a pair of bare hands, but he used that pair of bare hands to create a world full of hates, blood shed, and he never fear of God, if he fear of God, when he will read this blog, and he knew someone knew him, what he had done last summer, and God knew him, and God saw those murders, and God surely will not pardon a sin which is covered, he must confess and asked God for forgiveness, and there is forgiveness in the Lord Jesus Christ...but the man did not confess his sins, and he continue to walk away from God, and he went to chant, and chant, chanting, that he think God did not see that his heart is full of fears and angers....and he went back home with empty promises from the idols...pretending this world is peaceful, no, that is vainglory...

Time is near, that the blood is crying from the ground, a doom day is coming for the murders...but the murderer said they are not any lunatic, he is happy with power and authority given....he did not know one day when he will be gone with that pair of hands, bare, but with blood stains. God can smell and see that blood... And he will meet God, and be judged, and then sent to torments, and then he saw his brothers are going the same killings on earth, and he regreted, but it is too late for him, he called onto God, to sent some one to go to preach to his brothers on earth, but God said, let them listen to Musa (Moses)....and repent...if they do not want to repent, then there is it, and let them hear their prophet, since Musa is their prophet, did Musa asked any of them to kill, or not to kill in the Bible or Torah or their scriptures, read the scriptures in the Torah, did Musa commanded his people to kill? Since Musa is the prophet...did he kill? Did he repented from killing?

The murders are living at the edge of the hell and world, and he did live like a living corps, dragging his foot to go to work in the morning. And at night he is tired with the killing, the toiling is not end yet...he is dead in sin, but he did realise it, he think he has no problems....

1 John 4:8

Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

1 John 4:16

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.
God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.

I saw great distress in searching that love in this world, and the world are in pain until the labour...of a new generation, are the new generation will learn to kill some more like the present one? We are living in wonderland....but a killing field...where the killing is done to wipe out the faithful....my sons, before I died I command you not to kill, but to heal, be a good doctors, and to cure, and continue to purge this world with love, that perfect love, from the beginning of the world, until to the end of this world, God is love, and He is the same, yesterday, today, and tomorrow...

My sons, run after that love, and live, lift up your head if you are in love with this world....
My sons, chasing after the eternal treasures, that cannot fade and destroy, do good, and lay your treasure in heaven, and repent from killing...

In this the merciful God surely will bless you and your house whole, my sons, I am not a perfect man, with perfect love, but, look, at that great cross, you will see Him, the perfect One, and He is able to give that perfect love to you...with that perfect love, you will not regret to live another day on this sin cursed world....God love you, no matter how bad is your sins are, come, receive the love, promised for you, come and take, put down your burden, put down your worries, and sadness, and your fear, there is one way to say, God love you....it is true, He as a man even died for you...

The End of this world is coming, the date is fixed,....wishing that day, we will have no regret! God is love...

A Constitution

".....Every person has the right to profess and practice his religion ...to propagate it......Without prejudice.......there shall be no discrimination against any citizen on the grounds only of religion, race, descent or place of birth....."

God, please help us in interpret these clauses rightly.

Some people are washing the colour away from their bodies and faces, soon they are colourless, brown looked like yellow....that is the only way to refute the discrimination and racism....funny! But this is true! Look at our politicians among them ...they had changed their coloured face, disgusting like another man..

May God free this coloured discriminated land....sin curse me! Undone me! Woe to me. May God bless me, wash me with the baptism of the Spirit. Hallelujah...wash! Do not just wash your cloth, wash our souls.

I am reading lazily, the news paper every days like some other, like the doctors, I am also reading the mind of the terrorists, every day when I see a car with darken sun glasses, wondering if Osama bin Laden is sitting in the car, maybe, many are behaving like the Chameleon changing colours, escape from the truth, covering up their sins like me, they are pretending to be good, fooling the people in trusting them....

Do not murder, hate is a kind of murder..and the devil is a liar, and the father of liars...quoted from the Bible..

Another turning over

Oh God, may You come and see this land, look at this place, hear my prayer, I got to pray, when I laid down, you know me, turn over my enemy again, one by one they are turned over, they must be brain washed with the blood of Jesus. Amen.

They lived in that town, so let them washed in the town! And the town folk come and see how they are being washed by the blood...

Until they repent and let my people go...My God, my great God...let me raise up my hands for them...free my people oh God...oh God free my people....let me fill in the Spirit....let me touched by the power of the Spirit...let my people come to believe in God...turn over the stumbling blocks, until they are freed from idol and gods of this world, in Jesus' Name, I prayed. Amen.

Only 9.6 %

9.6 % of the population in a small country is considered Christian, this 9.6 % included the Romans Catholics, and out of this 9.6 %, only a few percent are considered as Protestant.

You know what happened until today, the big charismatic churches in this country are oppressing the smaller denomination like the fundamentalist, and the smaller denominations are nothing to them, even they looked down to those independent churches, they are happy with the numbers in their churches...they called themselves as the mega churches, they did not know that the smaller churches had sow the gospel seeds sometime ago...

The mega churches are drawing more and more followers with drum, music, tongues speaking, visions, and they continue to look down to the poor churches, look at their elders and pastors, how they talked to the poor and small parish workers, they behaved like rich fool, in oppressing the poor and small churches...surely the time is ripen...and time is near to change the number, since they are happy with the numbers, they are playing the number games, and they are good in playing politic with the politicians and playing sentiment games with the people, with drum, drum, drum...the game is nearly over...but they must buy the token again...they will paid for what they had done.

May God hear my prayer, how long, how long, they will stopped to ask, "have you baptism in the Holy Spirit"...Lord, tell us frankly what is the importance of this baptism of the Holy Spirit all about." Why they are so proud of the baptism of the Spirit, aren't we have spoke in unknown tongues, aren't we seen visions even dreams, even spoke in tongue more than many of them, and can't we become a fundamentalist at the same time, why there must be a wall between the churches, between the rich and the poor churches, even until this moment, the rich fool does not repent from disturbing us the poor and the least..we know we are ugly...aren't we chosen by You? Why there is pride in us?

And they had taken the one and only lamb from us! Why can't they satisfy with the number, God, please hear my prayer. Give me wisdom in this, and there come another rich fool, and he come with another question, "Where is your perfect Bible." How long they are going to stop asking this kind of questions? Why can't they satisfy with their KJV, and stick with that, even the unclean crows had fed Elijah...why can't they accept something good like CUV and NKJV, and ESV from God? Are they waiting for another holy crow flying from the heaven to feed them with perfect 10 courses dinner, since they indirectly said they had that in the underlying text of KJV, the Greek and Hebrew Texts? Did they hear the cry of the harvest, the dead in the sins, the people like me? Why they asking questions, can't they write books and tracts to refute false teaching and cults, why they fight among themselves, and their young have lost directions in heading where to lead their way. And they start to quarrel among the young. And there is no end until today...of their study, and may God stop them in pursuing the perfect Bible. Let them read the KJV like what they had read before.

9.6 % or 20 % of the population, they are a small population, why you take pride in this 9.6 %...20 % number? We are commanded not to jealous, not even to the charismatic....and fundamentalist, everyone esteem other?

Can we say, let stay together, lean on each other? Love one another? My enemies? My friends?

How long, I have to cry and shed my tear for my land, how long, the land that I pray and cry for, oh how I love my people, may God freed them from the bondage, so that they can come to believe in Jesus freely, ....but woe to me, because I can't love my enemy, I can't love my neighbour, sad ...there is a war in me, like the Guo Ming Tang and Communist, they are fighting in me. Who can help me? The Lord Jesus help me.

Neigbour is the enemy, enemy is the neighbour

God is love, surely God is love...Great is the Love of God, God is great, Amen. My enemies are my neighbours, my neighbours are my enemies, confused...sometimes, what am I doing to live with them?

But God commanded me to love both of them, be silent in front of my enemies, surely God will not spare them from their evil, but we have to love them sincerely, revenge is from the Lord, may God's will be done on earth as in heaven, pray like a pastor, do not just pray, pray like Elijah, do not just pray...

8 woes

woe to the rich who cannot find richness in God.
woe to the rich men who does not help the poor men,
woe to the rich pastors who betray the poor pastors,
woe to the young who looked down to the elderly one,
woe to the people who taken brides and bribes without shame,
woe to the people who telling lies to cover up their sins,
woe to the kings and leaders who are cruel and greedy,
woe unto us, who are lost in sins, the Bible tells us,

we are cursed, because of the sin of Adam...but the Lamb of God, take away the sin of the whole world, blessed is the Name of the Lamb, and let us praise Him, Amen.

Almighty God, may You take their power away from them, so that they will be powerless, and give that power to another man, let another replace him, and bound the terrorist for a moment, for they are creating havoc on earth, let them search their heart, peace or war? God help us to love them down deep in our heart, because one day, You will come to ask the people on earth, "Where is the faithful on earth."

One question to the wise...Where is place and country, the terrorists are living now, it is in my...you know, where? This is only a part of testing, do not worry, be happy....take this time...a time to repair the goverments ...Sad to say, I am talking like a frog! They still wanted to tail me... Theology like VPP is only exist in my head.... and cannot, and will never exist in my heart!

I wish this will become true..May God bless us in the Name of the Father and the Name of the Son and the Name of the Holy Spirit, Amen, Amen, Amen..

Another urgent prayer to God

All mighty God, please hear my prayer this evening, my enemies are like the waves, and the sand, and more than my hair, and they hated me deeply.

God our instant help, you know who are the terrorists, they have spread the germs and virus around the world, and the people are panic and suffering about this, please heal and help us, and let the enemies be turned over, they are using witchcraft to disturb us, God, please defeat their witches, Lord bring into light, shine Your light from Your face, and Lord, help us, may Your will be done, and we have to obey even if the virus and epidemic are endangering mankind, please turn our enemies again, and the sky stand still for us in this spiritual warfare, and let the people awake to make wars, and let there be peace in Jerusalem...come, the Great One of Israel, our LORD, Jahweh, come, we are waiting for your coming, how long we have to wait some more, the the water had come to my neck, may God help me, Amen.

Wailing, wailing, wailing, for the coming troubles on earth....
moaning, moaning, moaning, for the pastors betray pastors,
crying, crying, crying, for the great is the calamity from heaven,

In Memory of a pastor

There was a pastor, he was a man of faith, love, hope, a young man said, he was a man in prayer, he was found also with truth, love, in him, he was a man who loved the Lord, this is also true about him, he trusted in God, this also true in him, the young man said he saw him sit down and half laid and prayed in peace. Talk in peace, and also serve the Lord in Christ, in peace. In him, the young man saw ..once...the work of the Spirit...!

In this pastor's life, there were things that caused many to respect and other things that caused people to disrespect him and, one of them is the VPP that mared all the respects they owe him. However we must not confused his character with his theology, some of his theology like VPP must be corrected...in VPP, they cannot be united, they must defend the Bible once and for all.

In the history of Israel there were some good kings, and there were many bad kings, God was angered with the bad kings, in the past, for example, Moses was stopped at Mt Nebo, in entering the promised land, in later time, the Israel was split into north and south after King Solomon. Many prophets were sent to Israel to warn and give them the word of God, but sometime they did not listened to the Lord. The Lord sent pestilences to chastise them. They had killed many prophets and servants of God. Their sins are recorded in the Hebrew Bible. Let us learn from that history. Time is near, that they had to make a peace agreement and after that they will make wars with the neighbours, until they destroyed them....they will settled their troubles once and for all, but there is a time for peace.

There are many, pastors, there is not even one, who is perfect....
There are many, man of God, there is not one, who is perfect,
there are many, prophets from God, there is not even one, who is perfect,
there are many, kings from God, there is not even one, who is perfect,
there are many, priest from God, there is not even one, who is perfect,

There is only one man and God, who is perfect, only one who is able,
He is the coming Messiah, the King of kings, Lord of lords,
He is called the Lamb of God....
Amen.

The young man said, the pastor is not a perfect man, lets us forgive him! Did you forgive your pastor?

In Memory of the Rev (Dr) Timothy Tow Siang Hui

By Jonathan Tow, 22 April 2009, Singapore

http://www.febc.edu.sg/assets/weekly2009/weekly-volvi-no30.htm

Many of you this evening know my father well. Some have co-laboured with him, many pastored by him, perhaps a number saved through him, and some taught by him. Regardless, many would agree that he was truly a man of God.

As Rev Tow’s son, I’ve seen my father’s life, both in the church and in the family. He was godly and devout. To me, he was a most gentle, patient, forgiving, generous, honest, loving, selfless, compassionate, gracious, loyal and obedient Christian. He practised what he preached. And, he always put God first. As a family, we witnessed this daily.

I just want to briefly share with you how my father was a man of faith and prayer. When confronted with situations, he always looked to the Lord for guidance and comfort. He recognised the sovereign will of God, and waited on His providence. Even in darkest moments and times of grave disappointment, he never blamed God, nor did he vilify those that treated him with evil intent. He was always calm and urged us to be like Jesus, like when Jesus prayed to His heavenly Father.

Even when my father was faced with physical infirmities in his old age, he never complained. He always said to trust his Savior. There were times I questioned the Lord why certain things befell my father, a most faithful servant of God. Each time I tried to solicit some response from my father, he always pointed to the will of God. Such was his total faith to God, as he would say, “Trust the Lord, He has a plan in your life, commit to Him”.

During his ministry, it was not uncommon for my father to give his entire salary to further God’s work. It was natural as men of flesh to sometimes feel worried what tomorrow holds should my father be called to the Lord early. We had some common fears, since my father, in worldly terms, owned nothing; no property and barely a nominal bank account. But he always responded spiritually, that we must have faith, trust the Lord and He will provide. The Lord is faithful, and the material, is immaterial.

In terms of prayer, my father always focused on seeking God’s will through earnest prayer. He never offered worldly advice, but always pointed to God’s will and seeking after His word. Also, when in doubt, he would tell you to pray. Pray, pray and pray. When we were young, we had our own family prayer meeting. In recent times, with his grandchildren, he would teach them to pray and bless them with his prayers.

When I look back, sometimes I wonder how it is possible to live like the great men of faith in the Bible. How to lead godly lives in all aspects. While he was certainly not perfect, I’ve seen my father to be a good example, and encouragement, that we can emulate, and achieve.

Finally, I want to share what I see to be a “thread” that binds these attributes of my father together. To me, it was his desire to show us that as a father, to love his family, was to demonstrate the love of God, our heavenly Father, to us all. It is not about wealth, or promises, it is about simple faith, and trust in the Lord. This also required us to love the Lord.

My father understood that as a father, he was but a temporary guardian. He showed us that our true Father is God eternal. When my father departs, we do not remain fatherless. Like him, we have the same eternal Father. That to me, is a key essence he imparted to us.

I am privileged to share in his life. I thank God that I was able to return to Singapore last month (March 2009) for two weeks. My father was in good health and continued to have a clear and lucid mind. His eye-sight remained perfect and he was still able to read in Chinese. He also read the newspapers and even asked me some international relations questions, as I was working in New York. But what struck me most was his profound humour. During the two weeks, he must have been a little irritated that I kept asking him the same question; “Dad, how are you?” He usually nodded silently. On the final night before I returned to New York, I asked the same question a couple of times. This time, he grinned, and asked the same question back; “Son, how are you?” I smiled. I was stumped. I saw what he meant. It was a profound response. We both understood.

I thank the Lord that my father returned to his heavenly Father peacefully in his sleep, and during a time when his health had significantly improved. It was to me, a remarkable and glorious return. The Lord, to me, did not forsake His faithful servant. The Lord, to me, returned as appropriate and just, to my father, a healthy physical and mental state, to honour him and to prove His power and love. And then, He bid my father welcome home.

One dream I never forget...for 30 years

For 30 years I kept a picture in my mind, it was taken from a dream. A colorful dream, a swine in the sky run across the sky, it was chased after by a gigantic stone, and the stone fallen into the sea, until today I do not understand that dream, it is a vision, a vivid and colorful blue sky, I never forget until today, but from who...What does it means to this world and my life. There were 5 0r 6 men in long white cloth sitting there watching that event in the sky, who are they, until today...I do not know.

This moment, when I look on myself, I recognized, I am not a spiritual man, and I am not spirit filled man, I was, but it was long time ago, but most of the time I am not walking with God, I am alone doing my things, talking this and that in this blog, struggle to find the truth hidden in the Bible, and going here and there, in ignoring God, and I am used to live like this, because the voice from God is seldom I heard now a day, I ignored His voices, He is silently letting me live in my world. I hope i can live like a koala bear, gentle and soft, peaceful but I can't. Who can help me? Who is the greatest helper for sinner like me? Am I called? God did call me 30 years ago through a voice, is He still wanting me to serve Him in this stage? I do not think so, so I resign as a servant of God, am I a priest?

After the Psunami, there is a Bsunami....a wild guess...a stone!